to be great! I honestly miss Düsseldorf a ton, but that's exactly how
I felt when I left köln so I know I will come to love Frankfurt too.
Sister bray and I had a super busy week up until Thursday in
Düsseldorf! I got to say bye to a lot of people and I'm grateful for
that. But the whole time I was feeling frustrated because I just
didn't really feel "done" in that area. And then I had a really cool
experience on Tuesday. I hadn't heard much from Marcia since she was
baptized. She is working two jobs and we could never get ahold of her
so I was getting super worried. But then I finally got ahold of her
that night! And she basically told me she had no testimony and didn't
believe in life after death or God or anything. I basically almost
started crying in the train on our way home on the phone. We talked
for a really long time and I slowly started to be able to understand
the situation. She has been having health problems and she went to the
doctor and turns out it might be worse than she thought. She just felt
like she was at the end station and very alone and very scared. As we
talked I finally was able to put together that she was simply very
scared and had put up a bunch of walls and closed everything,
including God, out. I didn't really know what to say and my heart was
just pounding and I wanted to cry! But then I started talking to her
about my experiences when I first got to Düsseldorf and how I had to
rely on God and on the scriptures because that is all I had. For some
reason Marcia really understood that and the walls kind of came down.
She started crying and saying she knew it was true and she knows the
gospel is true. We talked for forever and I was able to give her a
list of scriptures to read and she promised to pray daily. She told me
I was like a daughter to her and I just saw a complete 180 in her
during the phone call. This probably doesn't sound that cool and
sounds weird, but it was such a cool experience for me because I know
without a doubt that the spirit helped me know what to say and I know
I needed to say that for her. And after that experience I felt okay
about leaving Düsseldorf.
We left pretty early on Thursday and took a bus with a bunch of other
people to Frankfurt. I hope Frankfurt is my last area because taking
luggage all over the place is the worst! Then later that night we went
to the leavers' testimony meeting. Sister Knutson, my new companion,
had to play the piano in it. It's really fun to be able to hear what
everyone has learned and it's also scary because I know that will be
us too soon.
It's very interesting because there are 14 missionaries in the
Frankfurt area! There are missionaries for the German ward and also
missionaries for the international ward. It's just a really different
atmosphere here! The ward is huge and has a ton of families and I'm
not used to that at all. Sister Knutson and I have also been doing a
lot of planning and I'm not used to that either. We have to help plan
2 zone trainings because we are over two zones and there is just a lot
to plan! I got to talk to a lot of the sisters last night during call
ins and they all told us awesome miracles stories so I'm really
excited to get to know them all better on splits!
We also don't have any investigators..and that scared me a lot when I
first got here! But I'm grateful for everything that I've learned so
far on my mission and I know that I can apply that here and I have the
faith that we will find people to teach! I tried chalking for the
first time on Saturday. A bunch of us got together and when to the
Main river and chalked the plan of salvation. (That's something nice
about this area. With so many missionaries, we go chalking every week
and have a street display every week!) we had some great conversations
with people and we met two women who seem like they have a lot of
potential! I hope we can meet with them soon.
I've been reading in alma this week and really liked this scripture:
alma 7:24 And see that ye have faith, hope, and charity, and then ye
will always abound in good works. I've decided that when I seek to
develop and actually use these attributes as a missionary, I will know
that I have done righteous and good works in Germany! I'm so grateful
to be here and know that it's exactly where I need to be.
Love you all tons!